I haven’t done much work lately..or much of anything really. I sit around watching tv and eating rubbish because I just don’t want to do anything. I’ve been sleeping in every day, and I’m constantly tired. It’s not that I’m unhappy or don’t like my work. It’s just so unbelievably lonely and boring here. Nothing [...]
There’s a mysterious, unclaimed bottle of wine in the fridge that noone can explain…
Anyway.
Today, for no particular reason, I was thinking about how people think I’m malnourished because I’m so small and skinny. And then they proceed to scrutinize my eating habits, looking for any sign of anorexia or something to “justify” my size. But [...]
When I was visiting my family back home this weekend, I remembered i’d left a notebook there, in my old bedroom, which i’d filled during my year out. I’d written in it quite often, not so much a diary, just a record of what I was thinking or feeling at certain points. It was really [...]
Project deadlines are perhaps the most hated of all student experiences. The erratic sleeping habits, lack of food, anxiety about failure…it’s bad.
I can safely announce that I got to my deadline, and presented my work to my class, and I’m still alive! Well done me. Now it’s right back to step one to do it [...]
I think i’m finally getting there, realising that I could fight and scream all I want and it wouldn’t achieve anything. It’s time to start looking out for myself, and not trying to fix anyone else’s mess.
-J